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A TALE OF 3 CITIES: PART TWO -LA PAZ, BOLIVIA

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So...to recap Pt. 1. I had ME all my 20's, no cure and no sense that God gave a XXXX about me. Fast forward to being in my early 30's and health had improved considerably...even if my life was proceeding like a car with a blind driver...



By 2005 I had improved so much that I was able to travel to La Paz overland from Brazil. Our 4 month back packing trip involved taking my healing and meditation skills on tour to New York, Southern Brasil, Bolivia and some of Peru. There was no healing in New York, but a lot of pastries and sightseeing. This was some improvement!

Was I completely cured? Totally well? Looking back from the perspective of someone who is now more sick than well, the answer to both questions, is a definite 'no'. I was residing in that space well known to long term ME sufferers- I was in Denial.

Even during my best years, I was habitually sick, having infections and viruses that wouldn't heal, and constantly having to take to my bed, taking pain killers ev…

MINI BLOG: A FEW SHORT LINES ABOUT GRIEF

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THIS PIECE WAS WRITTEN AS PART OF A THERAPUTIC PHOTOGRAPHY GROUP ( ONLINE). PLEASE DO NOT THINK THAT I AM REALLY DEPRESSED OR FALLING APART. THIS IS NOT A CRY FOR HELP- I AM DEFINATELY WAVING. AND NOT DROWNING!!.  THIS IS A SINCERE ATTEMPT TO EXPLORE THE LOSSES OF THE LAST YEARS, THROUGH PHOTOGRAPHY AND WORDS...AND  I HOPE THIS MINI- BLOG WILL RESONATE WITH SOME OF YOU. 
Grief.

I have lost a person I spent every day with and loved, I had hopes and dreams about her future. I miss how she used to look and feel, and her plans for what she thought she would be doing, and the adventures she thought she would have. The person who has taken her place, is kinder and more patient. Life has broken her open and the Light streams in and out now...

Grieving is like a Malaria that I know I will never be entirely free from. 

 I live in the moment, it is all I can have, and I am occupied by doing all the things I need to do to placate this new sick person, .and then...

...an encounter with the world…

A TALE OF 3 CITIES. PART ONE: BRIGHTON, ENGLAND.

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There is a regular occurrence in the 'Peanuts' strip cartoon, when the tiny tyrant Lucy, takes the ball away, from an ever hopeful Charlie Brown.

Charlie is left feeling bruised, disappointed, and betrayed by life. He also feels like an idiot for not having anticipated a bad outcome. Experiencing several of those 'Lucy' events in succession, can steal your judgement and optimism and leave you feeling as if life has just thrown you into a black pit.

At that point, almost everyone prays, even if it is to a God that they don't believe in. It is what we do. For most of my life, that was me- I didn't believe in God until I was desperate, and then it was only to get what I wanted. I thought of God as a tyrant to punish me, or a Santa Claus able to grant my wishes. Over time, to my great surprise, this gradually changed...and I found Faith. 


I would like to celebrate my journey from Church-hating atheist, to card-carrying Christian, in a series of three Blogs I'm c…

HEAL ME- Book Review

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The unfortunate thing about Chronic illness, is that when you are already sick,  stressful life events only make you sicker. So....after an extended period of devoting every shred of energy to ...well...being ill basically.... the elephant is BACK and getting down to this week's Blog...

Heal Me- Book Review.

According to NHS UK,  it is estimated that around 43% of people in the UK experience chronic pain....with 1.5 billion suffering worldwide. It is one of the most poorly understood and difficult conditions to treat.





Like many in the Chronically ill posse, after being left to my own devices by conventional medicine, I have tried many things over the last 30 years in a repeated attempts to find a 'cure':


Chinese Medicine, Cranial Osteopathy, Chiropractic treatment, Natruropathy, swimming, breathing lessons, spiritual healing, Reiki healing, exclusion diets, physiotherapy ( x4), acupuncture, yoga, learning Reiki, private allergy specialist, holistic hospital... You hum it- I…